I just want to crawl back into bed and start over.
Today is almost done, but it just seemed like it couldn't get done with quick enough.

Math TLE's, submitting a final project for one of my classes...
Doing a take home final.
I have a portfolio to get around, a final project for my basic design class, a final in Desktop publishing, a final for basic design... a paper to write, a bunch of other things to get finished.. and I'm having trouble trying to focus without becoming overwhelmed!

I'm frustrated with the holidays and they aren't even here yet! Grrrrr.
My ex-husband has the kids on Christmas eve. I pick them up in Defiance on Christmas morning and then drive back to Piqua to have our Xmas get together and open presents.
Well, Xmas is on a Sunday this year.. so I'm sure my family (in Cleveland) will be hemming and hawing over how we can't possibly do Christmas with them the day after.
I get dumped on by everyone about the holidays.
My kids' get driven all over and don't get to enjoy their Christmas presents, so they complain a tad.
My husband of course doesn't want to go to Defiance -ever - so I'm sure I'll be driving there all by myself.
My family all thinks that things are just perfectly wonderful and can all get together on Christmas day.
I don't have the money for 2 hotel rooms and I sure as hell don't want to be spending my whole freaking Christmas driving!!
2 hours to Defiance. 2 Hours back to Piqua. Open presents in a rushed fashion. Pack kids' back up and haul them 3.5 hours (depending on weather and traffic) across the state to Mentor which is relatively close to Cleveland. Oh.. and with everyone else coming to visit for the holidays, my sister, brother-in-law and their 2 children will most likely be spending the night at my parent's house.. which leaves about NOWHERE for us to sleep over.
I hate the holidays.
I should just mail them the gift exchange presents, say Merry Christmas, and you know where to find us.
It sucks. Why can't I just have family that isn't all over everywhere? Why am I the bad guy for not wanting to constantly run all over this damn state visiting people?
My parents can hop in one of their hotrods and cruise to California, Missouri, Florida -- wherever there's a car show (over the summer) but they can't come to me? I give up.

I don't want holiday cheer. I don't want to do anything right now... except cry and crawl back into bed.